Monday, May 10, 2010

The After Math

Just reached home after saying a last good bye to all my beloved freinds at the farewell party. I had a big blast in mind before I left but it was way beyond a satisfactory level but still those last moments with friends were really memorable. Waving a last good bye to the college I felt like I’m leaving my last breath of a life and entering a new one.

A small scintilla of thought of what I’m today just passed my brain. The thought was so small but the disturbance it caused cannot be cured even with a bottle of whisky. I’m in the midst of nowhere. In these four years all I done was nothing. I tried my level best and felt like I succeeded in a few things but they didn’t help me in getting even a single admit.

I ignored and neglected all the spice for a few small things and at last ended up like a loser. Nothing went well for me. Rite after the farewell I saw people having a bright smile on their faces bidding farewell to their bounded mates. I was not even successful in finding one.

Now from this second I’m a typical unemployed Indian the other name for a loser. From now on I have to start searching for a job. Start planning for my future carrier. I donno if I will succeed but the lessons I learnt from the past experiences in college will sure help me out. At least I will not repeat those stupid mistakes again. Hope everything goes well but this time I think I will not have any time to concentrate on girls. I missed all the chance that I had in the past years and now I don’t have any time. I think I will end up in an arranged marriage like a typical Indian. But still the ultimate gift of god to dream is still with me so at least I can dream about her every time I feel low. That will be more inspiring than anything to me.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Those Memorable Days

24 more hours left for me in this beautiful college. I can’t believe that I have to leave this college in a few days. It still feels like I just joined the college. I still remember the first day of my college life when I sat with my mom in the first row of the seminar hall dressed in some weird style. That was the day when I saw my first crush. Days passed and I started making new friends in the class. Then started the interaction sessions with seniors. I was frightened in the beginning but later felt like fun and it also helped me in a few ways to communicate with girls.

More days passed by and we started having the real fun. A few People started talking to their crushes and few others were busy making plans to talk while a few others like me just sat at the back and used to laugh for themselves. Gradually all the crushes started reaching their edges a few got serious and few got separated. I have no idea where mine has gone. Then we gradually started late night hangouts with friends, playing games during class, passing comments on girls and of course had a few wired moments when got caught but still had fun.

Time passed by and we grew older and more mature than ever and of course few extra habits also got added up in our curriculum. Then we became seniors. Everything changed from then. The first thing that changed for me was my crush. This time it was neither my classmate nor my college mate rather she was my bus stop mate. The ragging lessons that we learnt in first year were put to test when we had our juniors. Our status increased in the college and we started Organizing parties and dealing with more mature projects in the college (don’t get me wrong they are not subject projects). Then there came an end to my second year and also an end to my second crush. This time I really felt her loss. Of course I never spoke to her but still I felt like I lost something in my life (I think that’s too heavy).

Then came the dashing third year. We grew older and fatter and added more habits to our curriculum. We started seeing change in ourselves with our lips getting darker and bellies hanging down the waist. But the same old story continued inside the class. This time I didn’t have any crush but I had all my options open. The only remarkable thing that I could remember in my third year was the Industrial tour we had. It was like a once in a life time trip for us. The third year was a bit smoother than the first two, the main reason was we didn’t have many controversies and fights and most importantly it was more smoother for me as I didn’t have any crush.

Then came the final year. There were only two words revolving in my mind when I entered my final year, they are GRE and TOEFL. By the time I finished them I lost half of my final year. The rest was totally collapsed by the political drama in our state. But still we had remarkably memorable moments together. The last New Year, the last Holi, the last fresher’s and especially the last days in our labs were all exciting and we had fun like never before and the most exciting of all is my last crush in my college life. Hope it lasts long this time

I wish I had a time machine to get back and enjoy those days again.

I dedicate this post to all my beloved classmates. Guys do comment if u have read this.

Monday, January 18, 2010

First Kiss

The first kiss that I got according to my memory stats was dated long back when I was in second standard. It was actually given to me by one of my classmates as a bribe for an extra b’day chocolate, she used to be very cute. After that I had a few other situations where a few people (I mean only females) kissed me and even I tried my luck some times but they are not that memorable as they all happened in my childhood and lacked the spice.

Now after a long time I got a chance to taste the real spice. It was after the farewell party, she was dressed in a red saree with matching lip stick and hand bag and walking along with me on the silent pavement. We are leaving to our home the next day and donno when we are going to meet again. I had a feeling of excitement on one hand and a strange feeling on the other hand which is irking me.

I felt like I had a lot to say to her before I leave but there were no words coming out of my mouth. This may be the last walk that we may have together as I may not meet her again in future. I had feelings for her but never directly expressed them. I wanted to finalize the matter, but I donno how to do that. All the way I was trying my level best to bring out some words out of my mouth but it was really tough. It was even stranger that even she was silent, I never found her like that before.

I wasted a lot of time and there was not much left over as we almost reached her hostel. It was a bit crowded in front of the hostel so I just stopped and thought of talking to her. I caught her hand and stopped her and started trying to bring out some words from my mouth. She looked really cute with her lips shining under the bright street lights. She was watching right into my eyes and my tongue has gone numb and there were no words coming out my mouth.

We stood there for some time like that talking with eyes. I gradually took a step forward and came face to face with her. I saw her closing her eyes as I was nearing. The nearer I was getting to her the more energy my body was taking to move forward. I was approaching in a dead slow speed and all of a sudden I saw her open her eyes and she moved forward and gradually touched her lips with mine. The warmth touch of her lips indulged loads of energy packets into my body. I raised my hands and put them on back of her head touching her smooth silky hair and enjoyed the warmth for a while. The feeling was like having 100 beers in a single stroke. Then she just pulled away from me and started walking away from me. I was totally confused, I was wondering if I had done anything wrong, then she turned around and gave me a smile and signed me too call back. That second I realized that it’s just the beginning.